Especially being found so in regards to my husband.
Trustworthy to stand by his side no mater what.
Trustworthy to be diligent in our household.
And (mostly) trustworthy in not slandering his name.
Without giving out too much detail, I will mention here that my husband and I recently went through a major struggle and extreme test in our marriage. Hearts were wounded deeply on both sides. Trust seemed a thing of the past.
In my anguish, I cried out to the Lord -- something I hadn't really done on that level in a very long time. I didn't know where to turn or what step to take next. Ironically (and unfairly) enough, the message I heard gently, yet loudly was that I, myself, was lacking; and I would have to reevaluate these specific levels of trustworthiness in my relationship with my husband.
In all honesty, I really struggle in this area. I want to be the "woman of resolution who, having chosen Godly principles, is firm and faithful to them."
I want to make a fresh commitment before God to truly honor my husband in all things and in all areas of my life so that he can find me worthy of his trust.
This includes my personal thoughts and emotions, the words I speak to him and to others about him, and my actions whatever situations may arise.
I want to commit to strive to only build him up in all areas, not to tear him down. Only with the Lord's help and grace will I be able to accomplish such a feat. And it requires me to guard myself diligently.
I'm continuing to read 1 Peter. Two things struck me while reading the second chapter:
1.) "Act as free men, and do not use your freedom as a covering for evil, but use it as bondslaves of God." (v 16) "...die to sin and live to righteousness; for by His wounds you were healed." (v 24)
2.) And also that God is described as the Guardian of my soul. (v 25)
How very comforting that is to know. <3
"Show me Your ways, O Lord, teach me Your paths." Psalm 25:4
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