Hey y'all,
Before we get to the real reason you clicked on this post (videos of the kids), I want to share with you a little snippet that I found in my journal.
I wrote this around this time last year -- October 10th, to be exact. The entries for the 3rd and the 4th were about a difficult season Jacob and I were going through financially at the time. There are notes on learning contentment and how to lean on God's promises, side by side with a pregnancy weight update where I weighed only 150 lbs compared to my 165 lbs the year before with Katie; and Mason was a bigger baby. We were definitely in lean times; but the Lord provided then, just as He does now.
I was pregnant for the second year in a row, and struggling with the conviction of staying home with my kids vs doing what I could to help lessen the stress we were facing financially. My biggest fear was that if I continued working, would I be less of a Mom? I remember feeling so alone and afraid.
God broke through the dark clouds of depression and fear that threatened to overwhelm me. I was reading through the Gospels at the time and was struck by how much of Jesus' ministry was about tending to our physical woes and worries. I definitely was in a lot of physical pain and stress at 35 weeks pregnant; and, as any mother-to-be, I was worried about the healthiness of my unborn child.
I was struck by Jesus' compassion on us as physical humans, and I remember finally opening up to Him about my pains and my fears -- and what a relief it was!
"Also, while I was praying, it dawned on me that God did not set my feet on the path of mommyhood to abandon me with a 'well, good luck -- see you on the other side.' He intends to walk hand-in-hand with me the entire journey -- whatever that journey includes. How encouraging and comforting that is to know." -- even now, a year later.
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